I apologize for the boring text only posts this week! Life is busy, well mostly work is busy. Life otherwise is doing good minus the fact that my k key is sticking and I need to keep correcting my spelling.
I ran day 2 of the couch to 5k and I'm doing good. I'm not running the amount that they say to run each day (5 min walk, 3 min jog, 5 min walk) I'm doing more like a 10 min walk, a 25 min run, and then a 15 min walk to cool down. I don't want to push myself heavily but I also know even not running for a few months I am beyond a 3 min jog. I feel even better because after work I went to play tennis with a friend for about 2 hours. I don't know if "playing" tennis is the proper description of what we did, really we missed a lot of balls and ran around the court. I also brought Montauk so she could chill in a corner of the court and get some outdoor exposure. She has been waking me up all night crying and scratching at the door wanting to go out. In all 6 years she has never acted like this and I'm just trying to get her out and tucker her out so she'll let me sleep.
In other real life news I may possibly be the proud owner of a car in 2 months. I don't want to jinx myself but I am really hoping, despite not trying to get my hopes up that everything will work out!
Today at work I got into a tiff with a friend/co-worker. I put friend first because I was the one who turned him on to the job and normally I count him as a friend. I'm incredibly sick of people in general telling me that I am always yelling (I'm naturally loud, have been my entire life) and that I do nothing but complain. Sure I complain, however I am the friend that tells you EVERYTHING all at once and prolly in surround sound. Might I sound angry, might I be loud? Might it even seem like I am yelling at you? Sure, in fact all of those things prolly happen. Though if I count you as a friend we've already been through the discussion of you'll know if I am actually angry (believe me you'll know if I am in fact angry) just as you know that I may be yelling but I am not actually yelling at you. I've been working really hard on not yelling, keeping calm, being cool and I've had discussions at great length with the person in question about our two very different personalities and communication styles. I could say that the kid is a flake, makes plans he can't keep, requests me to hound him if I want him to remember something (i.e. I remind him of something every day) and that he has made some large mistakes in the past that I've looked past in reference to me. Yet he can't seem to afford me the same respect. He is constantly telling me how negative I am, how I never smile, how I am somber and reserved (I'm at work) and after today? I really just don't want to put up with someone who I feel constantly puts me down. I make it a point to try to bring him up when he is down, upset, not feeling like his a game is on, and yet when I think to when the roles are reserved he does none of the same.
Sorry for the rage-y post of feelings. I just needed to get it out somewhere. I promise the Fabulous Friday Favorites will return this Friday!
What do you do when you feel like a friend is actually putting you down rather than build you up? Let me know what you think in the comments.